Purple Pretty Hearts

Esok Aidiladha.

Honestly, life tak selalu ikut apa yang I nak. Kalau ikutkan, ada beberapa bab yang I sendiri would’ve written very differently. 😏

Tapi bila fikir balik, setiap kali benda tak menjadi, setiap kali plan lari jauh daripada expectation, somehow Allah tetap buka jalan.

Mungkin bukan jalan yang I minta. Tapi selalunya jalan yang I perlukan.

So hari ni, hati rasa lebih banyak syukur daripada rungutan.

Syukur untuk kesihatan. Untuk keluarga dan sahabat yang sentiasa mendoakan. Untuk rezeki yang mencukupkan. Untuk peluang-peluang yang Allah hadirkan tepat pada waktunya. Dan juga untuk perkara2 yang tak menjadi, kerana selalunya di situlah pengajaran paling besar datang.

Sempena Hari Arafah, semoga Allah kurniakan kita semua kesihatan yang baik, ketetapan iman, hati yang tenang dan kekuatan untuk terus istiqamah dalam setiap kebaikan yang sedang kita usahakan.

Kadang-kadang kita terlalu sibuk nak tahu apa yang ada di hujung jalan, sampai terlupa untuk menghargai perjalanan yang sedang kita lalui.

Tapi mungkin hidup memang macam tu.

Kita tak perlu ada semua jawapan. Tak perlu nampak keseluruhan peta.

Kita cuma perlu terus berjalan.

Sebab sebelum kita lahir lagi, Allah dah pun tulis cerita kita. Dan setakat ni, walaupun ada bab yang kita tak faham, Dia tak pernah gagal membawa kita ke tempat yang sepatutnya.
🤍

Rindu. Pada ketenangan. Semoga Allah pilih sekali lagi.
♥️🤎♥️

The older I get, the less impressed I am by excitement.

Give me consistency.
Give me honesty.
Give me people whose actions match their words.

Because these days, I’m not looking for butterflies.
I’m looking for peace. 😌

Life is already expensive.
Petrol expensive.Groceries expensive.
My patience? Also not cheap. 🤣

So please.

Please don’t arrive carrying mixed signals, unnecessary drama, or another headache.

I’m at that age where protecting my peace is no longer a luxury.

It’s a requirement. 💜

If you’re in your “protecting my peace” era too, repost this to your story. 🤝

In case I cannot coordinate my outfit in future.

22 years in uniform taught me patience, people skills, and how to spot nonsense from 3 business days away 😌 professionally composed. Mama of two boys who treat me like a mix between bodyguard, ATM machine & unpaid therapist. Emotionally intelligent on some days. Sarcastic on most days. Not sorry even.

Currently navigating life with iced blended chocolate (CBTL really should give me SVVIP membership by now), humour, healed boundaries, and vibes. I believe in kindness, good manners, honest communication and disappearing quietly when energy feels weird. I romanticise soft moments but can still survive hard seasons. A little bit rehabilitative officer, a little bit chaos coordinator. Classy outside. Internally… controlled chaos.

I yap. I overthink. I pray. I laugh too loud. I make lawak bodoh at inappropriate timings and then wonder why people cannot take me seriously 😭 Sometimes I give life advice like a wise ustazah. Sometimes I reply texts like a tired minahrep. Balance.

Too soft for unnecessary drama. Too witty to beg for bare minimum. You give 10%, I give 8%. You give 💯, I’ll reciprocate accordingly. Energy matching only around here ✨

Not everyone will understand me. And honestly? Those who do… usually quite intellectually attractive. Alhamdulillah 🌊

Mama. The most resilient woman I will ever know.
The kind who can sacrifice quietly sampai orang tak nampak penat dia. The kind who taught me what patience really means… not through lectures, but through life itself.

Sekarang ni je… I suspect Mama lebih favour 4 cucu dia daripada 2 anak perempuan dia 😏. Apakah nasib😑

Our parenting styles? Ya Allah… memang langit dengan bumi 😭. Sometimes I tengok Mama handle things… I question my entire existence as a mother HAHAHA. But one thing yang sama… the love we have for our children. That one… tak pernah kurang.

Nak cakap I ni good daughter sangat growing up pun… macam takut nanti Mama masuk comment section and expose all my crimes from 1997 onwards 😑. So for safety reasons… Shahin chooses silence today 🤐😂.

But thank you, Ma.For being my safe place.
My emergency contact before emergency even happen.The one person I can talk to about life… work… sometimes relationship problems pun selamba cerita now 😭😂.

Maybe I cannot give you luxurious things in life. Belum level “Mama choose which Chanel colour you want” lagi 😭. But one thing I promise… my doa for you will never stop. In this dunia. And the hereafter.

Please continue making doa for me, for Adik, and your 4 cucu kesayangan tu 😏🤍.

Love you, Ma.

Life thru my POV. Lately.

Less chaos. More clarity 💜.

Sons.

Biologically binded by blood. Two.

By heart. A whole clan.

Be good and be kind always,my children.