Sani Faza

I am safe now because I have returned to my hometown. But the trauma and fear haven’t faded at all. Every night before I go to sleep, I talk to God. At the same time, I wish I had someone I could trust—someone who would listen and accept my story about the trauma that keeps making me feel like I want to end my life, like I do tonight.

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After everything I have been through because of that man, with my mind so exhausted, do I still deserve to live?

The man has repeatedly tried to kill me. Even when I was pregnant, he still tried to kill me. But God gave me another chance to live.

Today, I found out that he has been telling everyone on the island that I cheated him out of 10 million rupiah. He has also been manipulating people by telling my friends that I hit my own face. None of that is true.

It feels like he wants me to die. Do I have to die so I don’t have to be exhausted by all the harm and cruelty he has caused me?

forever my son ♾️

This is last year, when I got abusive on my pregnancy but Sometimes I miss the moment when you inside me. Just u and me my D. no one else

Rising up gentleman

thankyou for choosing me as your mom

i love u my kiddos