Port Huron Studio 710

There was some place along the way that if I could keep everything around me a “certain” way…

I would finally feel safe.

That was how I learned to survive.

I’m grateful for that piece of me, because it got me where I am today.

I honor that piece of me, and I still let her speak her piece.

But now , I’m learning to reassure her that we are safe.

It’s okay for things to not always have order…

For people to have their own feelings…

That not everyone will like us and that’s perfectly okay…

I’m learning that I can release control and still feel safe within myself.

I can let go of needing to manage circumstances around me, and trust in myself to navigate whatever comes up.

Sending Love Always!💞

Today you may not know with complete certainty…

Maybe it’s not that you need to know, maybe it’s an invitation to trust and go forward with faith.

Five years ago God put me on a completely different course, one I had not planned for.

I wanted to quit life, but I stayed, I felt and am still feeling.

And still, I’m becoming.

And what I have started to realize is, I’m at a place where I’m tired of running, chasing, forcing life.

Survival…

The constant check list, the constant what’s next?

I’ve had five years of having to relearn who I really am, and what I want to create in this beautiful life of mine.

I still Don’t know exactly where I’m headed, I’m just not chasing certainty.

I’m learning to follow what lights me up and to trust God in what I cannot see.

Because what I’ve learned along the way…

Survival doesn’t fill your life, it just takes up a lot of space.

And I’m just ready to give my life some breathing room…

Sending Love Always!💞

Happy Tuesday!☀️

Monday… ☀️

When our energy is aligned, we influence the environment. Cathy Heller

Smurf hands were worth the peekaboo🥰💙

Hair by Noelle!

Saturday! 🤸

Results of 2 sessions on years of black box dye📸✨
Hair by Emily

Creamy Bright Blonde🍦
Hair by Destinee✨

Keeping it Dimensional📸✨
Hair by Alyssa

Healing….

I realized after my first marriage ended I needed to figure me out.

Not fix, but get to know the girl inside, the one that kept looking for love outside of herself.

She thought if she could just find someone that loved her deeply enough, they would take care of her and keep her safe.

I maneuvered like this in the world far longer than I truly want to admit.

But I knew no other way, I wanted my Fred “ Flintstone.”

I started reading and came across a book on codependency back in my 30’s.

I realized how it related to my behavior and so my healing process began.

I had to accept responsibility for my healing and the patterns I was carrying forward.

I had to accept that little girl, she survived the best way she knew how.

One of the hardest parts of my healing was looking at the things I would rather not see.

It would’ve been so easy to blame my father, my children’s father, my circumstances, but trust that, that’s not going to heal anything.

Trust that I almost made that choice, as I am human and sometimes just default to the easier way.

This is healing, it continues…

But each time it presents itself and you are aware and see it for what it is….that’s healing.

No big ending, no warm cozies, just awareness.

Sending Love Always!💞